Monday, February 28, 2005

Resisting everything except temptation

I've managed to spend most of my recent windfall; no surprise there.I've also been very at peace, not having to worry about if I can afford to buy the lowfat chocolate milk AND the mandarin orange slices at the grocery store. Again, no surprise.

What has been surprising is my temptation in other areas.

Mainly, buying horrifically expensive (read: over $100) shoes and makeup I probably won't wear anyway.

I managed to spend $125 at Nordstrom online and $100 in Belk on makeup. $25 on nail polish (!!!) from NARS. I don't want to think about the charges to half.com.

I've decided to quit while I'm ahead and pretend the money isn't there. Since I've just gotten good at balancing my checkcard register, I'll use my nonexistent math skills and terrible short-term memory to just not count the money that's already there, and forget about it.

We'll see how that works out.

Now if I could just manage to stay away from the online shops until the good spring/summer stuff comes out. I'm dying to see if aerosoles comes out with a good espadrille or more wedges.

Thursday, February 10, 2005

My Ex is having my wedding.

The Ex (not THAT ex, the one I actually can still tolerate)and I talked last night about weddings and stuff.

We're cool like that.

Anyway, he makes the mistake of commenting about dresses and how it's so hard for women to buy dresses ("Too bad you just can't rent one, like a tux"), and I launched into my "The Wedding Industry is a Racket and Must Be Stopped" rant.

Then he says,
"That's why I just want a really simple wedding. Me in a nice black suit, my friends in their nice black suits, and her in a simple white dress, not necessarily a wedding dress, just something pretty."

And I got really quiet because he's going to have my wedding.

And I'm going to have this monstrous, ultra-traditional, boring as hell affair with me looking like a meringue.

Damnit.

I should've stayed with him just to have someone to agree about wedding stuff with.

Thursday, February 03, 2005

Be Kind to Bridesmaids

there's been some discussion about what dresses my bridesmaids want to wear.


is what I like. (and, truth be told, what I thought they'd all like)

However, seeing as how the wedding is in late October, and I was seriously thinking about it being outside (yeah, i'm that smart), and the majority of the bridesmaids in question are of the "more is more" persuasion when it comes to clothing and coverage, they like this one:



which is fine, I guess. Maybe I'm just in the wrong season. I envisioned this really cool, beautiful, laid-back affair, and it's turning into a church/traditional/just like the zillion other weddings before it thing.

My new catchphrase?

"Fine."

They want that dress, fine. No problem. There was a time I actually considered it in white anyway, while I was trying on dresses at the Evil Bridal Shop.

I should probably make a blog for wedding planning. That way I won't have to send a thousand e-mails or anything on this.

re: wedding -- Feh.

I'm sick.

I have an ear infection, I want to go home and sleep, but I have 'homework' to do for a job interview I went to on Monday (whee.)

I am not excited about anything, except maybe my bed, which has suddenly become the most comfortable place in the world and what I've been thinking about for the last few hours.

I'm not excited about getting married, as my bridesmaids don't like the dress I picked out, and (smart me!) I just figured out that october 22 is too late in the year for the outside wedding I always wanted.

And as I am too poor to afford any of the things I always wanted, it's not a big deal anymore. We'll just get married in a plain little church and no decorations and eat and go home.

I don't want to invite anyone at this point; we can just get married at the justice of the peace, and call it a day.

The Fiance says it'll be fine; mom says it'll be fine. Me? Not so sure.

Bed just seems like a really good place to be right now.